I had a mini-breakdown tonight. For the past month, I have been pacified by my Doppler's heart rate reading. (Yes, I was always a bit disappointed, but with a retroverted uterus and a history of early losses, I had to continuously remind myself that something is better than nothing.)
Well, tonight that philosophy failed me.
I do not know if I freaked out because Hubs and I were set to order the nursery furniture today (using a $400 surprise check we got in the mail earlier this week) or because we are planning on outing ourselves on Facebook on Sunday. Suddenly I did not feel confident doing either of those things. And so I freaked out.
After texting my mother-in-law to see how quickly she could sneak us in for an ultrasound at her hospital, I decided to give the Doppler another go. This time, however, I skipped the official stuff and used some aloe gel we had laying around the house. And what do you know? I heard Nemo's heartbeat! Twice!
I texted my mother-in-law again, and she immediately called wanting to hear it too. (Too bad I had already cleaned up.) I wish we had thought to record it for her, but we will have many more opportunities for that later. Tonight, I am just grateful that Hubs was in the room with me, and we were able to hear our baby's heartbeat for the first time together.
Now, about that nursery furniture ... :)
I love having my doppler - it is such a relief and provides a great deal of reassurance on those days when I am feeling less than confident that all is well!
ReplyDeleteSo glad you got to hear the heartbeat today with no problems!
It's such an amazing thing to hear your baby's heartbeat. I was so excited when I heard ours beating away for the first time. It's great having a doppler handy to give you peace of mind that everything is ok with your little one.
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